Invisible...

I remember taking this picture.

We were in Los Angeles, Ca.

We (my family and best friend and I) has just walked down Hollywood Blvd.

This was a really hard day for me, I was in alot of pain but my walking wasn't too off, and I refused to let MS control my day and ruin anything. I was going to have fun.

The reason I posted this photo is because can you tell i'm in pain, that I have scars on my brain and all of my spine? That I have a walker for those bad days that I can't walk a straight line? What about that I took a cold shower that day because if I had taken a hot one I wouldn't have been in this picture or have gone on Hollywood Blvd at all, the hot water would have ruined all of that for me?

I hope your answers are no to my questions.

Multiple Sclerosis is an invisible disease, at first and i hope to keep it this way.

Right now, i'm smiling as i'm typing this because i'm remembering how much fun LA and CA is and how much I love going there. But I'm hurting. I'm getting used to the pain though. Something I wish I didn't have to be used to. 

What I mean by invisible is you can't see pain, you can't see someone elses double vision and you can't see if i'm sitting down I probably wont be getting up very fast. You can't see fear either. I have a fear everyday that my legs wont work when I wake up.

So memories are probably my favorite thing, and I'm happy I can share my good days with people I love and that love me. 

I am always taking pictures because one day I don't want to say "well i wish i could remember what happened that day but I can't.." because with MS foggy and lagging memory is very common. How many times have I told you a story? Then turned around and told you again with out realizing it? Chances are if I know you in real life, a lot. haha.

The point of this blog was to talk about how MS is an invisible disease. I don't think I would like it to be visible because I don't want people i am just meeting to know I'm sick, and have them give me "the look".

The pitty look.

Everyone has their own way of dealing with being sick, these blogs are mine. And I appreciate each and everyone of you that has taken the time to read them. so THANK YOU ALL.

Stay thirsty my friends (haha stay well.)